I should know better than to…

Posted on July 21, 2010 by Eleni Zoe| 9 Comments

…trust without being given a reason to trust first.

…believe in the literal meaning of words flung together and whispered across naked skin.

…look for answers in the night; particularly when my eyes haven’t adjusted to the darkness yet.

…hope that I would be missed. Eventually.

…forget about the past.

…envy a life I would never want for myself.

…expect nothing. (Even a null expectation is an expectation.)

…compromise my wants and needs for a roaming hand on my bare thigh.

…like it.

…resist writing about all this fire inside me.

…think I had nothing to say.

Your turn. I should know better than to…?

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9 Responses to I should know better than to…

Taylor | July 22, 2010 at 4:25 am | Reply

In addition to everything you wrote, because really I can relate right now, I should know better than to …

-Hold on to the past
-Wait around for him to choose me
-Let him lie to her
-Be a rebound
-Hope this time will be different
-Lose all hope

It’ll get better. It has to.
- Hope | July 22, 2010 at 6:34 pm | Reply
  
  I really liked that last one. I should also know better than to lose all hope.
  
  Thanks for the reminder, Taylor.
Bathwater | July 22, 2010 at 5:14 am | Reply

I should know better than to hope all my waiting will one day pay off.

I should know better than to believe some else will walk into my life.
Kristin | July 22, 2010 at 5:24 pm | Reply

Oh girl, I feel you. That is right on. I should have known better about all those things and more. We all have hope, but sometimes I think that same hope blinds me.
- Hope | July 22, 2010 at 6:37 pm | Reply
  
  The morose Friedrich Nietzsche once said: �Hope is the worst of evils, for it prolongs the torment of man�
  
  Right on, FN, right on. :)
~Tim | July 23, 2010 at 3:16 am | Reply

I should know better than to believe she is ever going to change.
Esme | July 23, 2010 at 9:21 pm | Reply

I should know better then to-

-think this time will be different when it starts the same
-wait around for things to change, when I don’t change myself
-expect something out of nothing
-read into what is said in the heat of passion
-sacrifice my morals for sexual chemistry
The Dumbest Smart Girl You Know | July 26, 2010 at 7:11 pm | Reply

Lady, we’ve all been there. Kudos for being able to not only recognize the mistakes, but do it so eloquently!
Bree | July 29, 2010 at 9:02 am | Reply

Everything, everything you wrote. And so much more. There are so many things I should’ve known in the past few years that would have made my life (and my relationships with men, one in particular) immensely better. I was naive, and have beaten myself up about it in the aftermath.

I guess that’s why they say “live and learn.” The truth is, I didn’t know better then. But I do now. And you do too.

Of course memory is sure to fail from time to time, but try not to forget that last one. Plenty of readers love reading what you have to say!