A year ago today, in this very minute, I was getting ready to go on this date.
It was –and still is– the best first date of my entire life.
Sometimes, I cannot reconcile the two men; the man who was on that date with me, and the man who eventually broke up with me. How could they be the same person? Sometimes, I cannot reconcile the two points; how could a beginning with that much potential have such a pedestrian ending?
But, today, is not the day to re-question all of that. The answers are as unknowable to me as the date of my next best date.
All I can do today is read back on that day and take comfort in the knowledge that a year ago last week I had no inkling that my life was about to change. I didn’t know that on that next Tuesday, my hair would be straight and my heart would be skewed to happy. I couldn’t imagine that I was about to experience the elusiveness of a reciprocated crush.
It’s kind of like the way I feel now, today, this very minute: I have no idea what will happen tomorrow.
And I like it.
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It’s kinda exciting not knowing what’s going to happen next :) It keeps life interesting!
I wish I had your optimism. I think about this time a year ago and I just get sad and then I want to tell the girl to read ‘Why Do Men Love Bitches’ before it’s too late. Actually I want to throw the book at her head and tell her to take the rose colored glasses off.
I’m trying to remind myself to “like” not knowing what will happen next….arg…it isn’t always easy to do though…
Reciprocated crushes ARE so elusive.
I need one of those days…badly.