On vicarious crushes
27 Jan
Somewhere out there is a boy that received a text message that looked like so:
:(
Simple enough right?
No. This feat of engineering, science and literature took two brainy women (writers no less) two a half cigarettes and ten minutes to prepare.
‘Should it be sent like this’
:(
‘Or like this?’
: (
We analyzed.
Then upon reflection, stared at each other and burst out laughing.
This is probably the best part of a crush. Hanging out with your girlfriends, composing messages, dreaming of all the possible responses and talking. Just talking. Of the loveliness, of the butterflies, of the ‘look’ he gave, of the if’s and when’s and how’s. Of the future. And the past. Of all the paths that brought you down this path.
This boy is not my crush. Yet I’m still crushing.
I’m crushing on hope. I’m crushing on potential. I’m crushing on risks. I’m crushing on being allowed to be a part of some sort of a beginning.
And if this is as close as I will get to a crush this winter, or spring or even summer it will be enough. Because this is the best part of a crush. The part where you spend ten minutes shamelessly debating one space between two punctuation marks.
Tell me about your crush.
I’d love to tell you about my crush, but it’s still too new and I’m having too much fun with it still. He’s awesome though.
Teehee…Crushes are grand. :)
I think I need a crush vacation.
I know exactly what you mean. A crush on a friend may have actually developed into something this weekend.. but it’s so up in the air and unknown, I don’t want to spend too much time thinking about it – but more enjoying the smiles and the ease of what might be beginning.. Luckily (?), he doesn’t rec’v or send texts. ;)
I can’t say I’ve had a crush in a quite a while. And I have to admit, I sort of miss it!
Just wanted to stop by and say your blog is lovely and your design is gorgeous!
Thanks for stopping by, Marie!
Here’s hoping that one does not get crushed and be like this :( or any equivalent.
Thank you for being the ever lovely you today! x
He isn’t at all my usual type. Not physically, anyway. He’s quiet and brooding and sort of intense. He’s got gorgeous blue eyes, and they’re gentle. I’m crazy over him, excited and giddy and brimming with hope.
It’s funny because I have a crush on this guy for quite some time already. And it’s funny because I know he has a crush on me too, cos we actually talk about it. Yes, I told him I had a crush on him. And he said something about being emotionally attached to me.
But.
There’s always a but :S My crush has a girlfriend, and she is aware of my existence. (gasp!)
But I still have a crush on the same guy. Even after three flings and a quarter of a relationship.
My crush is a guy I’ve been seeing the past 4months. But it’s complicated though as we’re taking a mini break so he can sort out some stuff with his exfiance. :-/
Loved this! And it is SO true! Those early moments…
Which is part of my crush too. I have a crush on the memory of who my boyfriend was when we first met nearly a year ago. The things he wrote, how he wrote them. The way he looked at me, the way he kissed me urgently then. It was filled with such hope of what could be between us.
But Life kind of intervened…his job situation changed and affected everything, just everything. We’re still together and working on getting back to where we used to be, but I don’t think we ever will. I feel like the opportunity for such things has passed and now it will never be.
We love each other and that’s more than the mere hope of such things in those early moments…it’s the realization of them. But I still feel a pang for what we were unable to share, for what was taken from us. For who he was and who I was to him.
I just had a crush which turned into full on reciprocal like and I got crushed. :( So taking a break from men.
I just read this again and laughed out loud. An epic lunch…
ohhhhhhhhhhh, i’ve been where you are in this post and it is delicious. enjoy every breath-halting second.